I’ve Seen God’s Faithfulness

“Because of the Lord’s great love we are not consumed, for His compassions never fail. They are new every morning; great is Your faithfulness.” — Lamentations 3:22–23

I honestly never thought I’d find myself here—openly talking about God’s faithfulness. Pero ang dami na talagang nangyari—at ang dami pang nangyayari—and through it all, one thing became super clear: God never gave up on me. Not even at my worst.

If someone were to ask me, “Was there anything good that came out of all the pain and heartbreak?”. Aside from realizing na mas matatag ako kaysa sa inakala ko, I’d say this: It brought me closer to God. I got to really know Him and I was able to build a relationship with Him. Sabi nila, if your pain leads you to a real relationship with the Lord, then that alone is something to be thankful for. Kasi sa totoo lang, ang daming tao, hanggang ngayon, hindi pa rin Siya kilala.

If I Knew Then What I Know Now
Sometimes I wonder—what if I had this relationship with God before the separation? Would things have turned out differently?

If my foundation had been strong back then—if I was already rooted in His Word and grounded in truth—I probably wouldn’t have fallen so deep into anxiety and depression. I might’ve handled things better. I wouldn’t have turned to medication just to feel “normal”. I realized that who I really needed that time was God. Because God promised us, “For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.“. Dapat from the start, I held on to that na lang and nothing else.

God Takes Care of Women Left Alone
One of the softest truths that I learned is this: God has a soft spot for women who have been left—whether through death, abandonment, or broken promises.. Yung mga mag-isang bumubuhat ng buhay, ng pamilya, ng lahat. He doesn’t overlook the pain of a separated or single mother. In fact, the Bible tells us that He steps in to defend, cover, and care for women like us.

“A father to the fatherless, a defender of widows, is God in His holy dwelling.” — Psalm 68:5

I’ve felt that especially during moments when I didn’t even know what tomorrow would look like. God provided, not just practically, but emotionally. He covered my heart, my home, and my daughter. He became the constant, the comfort, and the companion I didn’t know I needed. I talk to Him all the time, wherever and whenever.

“Do not be afraid; you will not be put to shame… For your Maker is your husband— the Lord Almighty is His name.” — Isaiah 54:4–5

That is the verse na kinakapitan ko when I feel like I’m doing it all alone.

Provision in the Tightest Places
I have to admit that the past months/years have been a bit tight and nakakatakot. Emotionally. Mentally. Financially. Pero I swear, I’ve seen God show up in the smallest and most unexpected ways.

I’ve been praying for His provision constantly. There are weeks when ang sakit sa bangs ng pagbudget, when bills pile up, or when sudden gastos pops up out from nowhere. That’s one of the things I am most anxious about because, unlike married couples or those who have partners in life, I do not have back up. If I don’t move, if I don’t save, if hindi ako kumita, olats ako. Walang bubuhay sa akin. Medyo scary. You know at church, when I take out money from my wallet during tithing, kinakausap ko si God eh. “Lord, I want to give so I’m giving this. Ikaw na po bahala sa akin ha?”

And then, I know from God talaga, because during the times when I need it, may biglang magbabayad ng utang. Random opportunities online suddenly appear. Sometimes Wowa would come to the house bringing groceries, fruits, vegetables and essentials. I cannot count anymore the times when tumataas balahibo ko and naluluha because of these surprises from God. So even if I tithe or donate, never ako na-zero.

“And my God will meet all your needs according to the riches of His glory in Christ Jesus.” — Philippians 4:19

God Sends People
I’ve learned that God doesn’t always move through miracles—sometimes, He moves through people. The past 4 years, He’s brought friends, mentors, and even strangers into my life to help me, encourage me, and remind me that I’m not alone. Napaka-dami grabe. Enough to knock me back to my senses or make me feel I have someone to talk to or teach me about God’s love and how we should always trust Him. I see His hand in the way people show up exactly when I need them.

“The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.” — Psalm 34:18

Looking Back and Moving Forward
I’m blogging about this because before, whenever someone comes to me saying they’re depressed or have anxiety, my first instict was to tell them to go to a psychiatrist and take meds. Binabawi ko na yan ngayon. For those of you going through a depressing stage, grief or whatever rock bottom situation now, this is what I want to tell you:

Pray. Pray a lot. Read the Bible. Go to counseling. It would be the best if you get a Bible based counselor. Get to know God. Have a relationship with Him. Rely on Him. Surrender to Him.

I’m not saying don’t go to doctors or drink meds. I am not in the position to dictate that. At one point, kailangan na din talaga ang help ng Science and they’re there for a reason. Ang sakin lang, I’ve been there, done that. Ibang klase lang din talaga if close ka sa Diyos. There are so many things that will change in you. There are so many things that will improve in you. Then you will heal.. and then thrive.

“Thus far the Lord has helped us.” — 1 Samuel 7:12

Am I still anxious about the future? Hell, yes. Iniisip ko lang tumanda magisa, natatakot na ako eh. But I saw how God moved in my life. Kung nakita niyo lang paano niya ako inahon nung mukha talaga akong nabinat na matanda sa hirap ng pinagdaanan ko, you will understand why I believe in Him. I know He knows what’s best for me and He will give it to me. It may not be what I want or in my plan, but I am 100% sure His plans for me are better. Yung tipong, kahit ako na may OCD, hindi maiisip na better plan nga yun for me.

So let’s believe in that. God is always faithful.

“Let us hold unswervingly to the hope we profess, for He who promised is faithful.” — Hebrews 10:23

A Short Prayer

Lord, thank You for never giving up on me.
Even when I doubted, You remained steady.
Even when I lacked, You provided.
Even when I felt alone, You surrounded me with love.
Teach me to remember Your goodness in every season. May this testimony bring hope to anyone walking through their own valley. You are faithful, and that will never change.
Amen.