Ang bagets daw ng OOTD ko last weekend.
Top: UNIQLO; Skirt: COTTON ON; Shoes: KEDS; Necklace: PIESA.PH; Sunglasses: PRADA; Bag: LV
At 37, I’m starting to feel I’m not 25 anymore. Are you like that too?
I do not know if in denial lang ako or sobra ko lang talagang vain but for past years, feeling ko talaga I’m still 25 years old.
Nung isang araw lang ako natauhan when I noticed that no matter how often I diet and exercise, yung flabs under my arms seem permanent already. Yung pwet ko din, mga bakla, does not defy gravity anymore. In fact, bestfriends na sila. Unlike before na my buttocks were round, firm and up up and away ang peg. Ngayon extra effort na talaga i-maintain.
Lalo naman sa skin. I wish I listened to the nagging of Wowa para nagka-puhunan sana ako. I will not mention my non existent thigh gap anymore. I’m now wishing naman for Sponge Bob’s thigh gap ano, pero sana lang meron kahit konti.
Nevertheless, I have to eventually learn to accept that I am getting older but wiser. I need to learn to adapt sa eventual na pag-tanda ko.
The only thing that I am worried is my health. Am I taking enough care of my health. Mahirap na mga bakla. Ang bata pa ni Anika. I really want to see her grow into this fine woman that she will be. I wanna be there at her wedding and I want to see my grand kids. Titigilan ko na yang mga Chicharon Bulaklak and one gallon of ice cream. I am starting to feel abnormal feelings. Like for example for the past few days, I get tired easily. I eyes droop by 8pm. I am asleep by 9pm. I feel hilo and nauseated nowadays. Maybe it’s because of the heat. My body cannot catch up anymore.
Or baka preggy ako. I messaged Alvin to buy me a pregnancy test so I can do the test tonight.
Bakit daw siya bibili ng preg test. Anak ng tokwa talaga ang asawa ko.
I can’t blame him though. Ayaw na niya umasa. Me also, hindi na ako umaasa. Wag na din kayo umasa guys. Six years na tayong ganyan. Lol.
In God’s will. Yun yun. Sa mahal ng tuition ngayon, ang Diyos na talaga ang bahala if I will get pregnant pa or not. It’s up to Him and all we can do is wait.
Well, not until forever but for the last months of 2017 at the most.
After that, magpapa-tummy tuck na ako.
Pak.