The other day, I was requested to send my blogging profile kasi daw they want to give me a project. One of the questions in the profile was what are my best blog entries. I scanned my old entries and I realized, ang dalas dalas ko pala magblog dati, ano? And I would write about anything and everything under the sun. I also realized that the concerns I have before as a newbie mom with a very young daughter is very much different from my concerns now.
Like regarding Anika for example. Ang mga concerns na ng bagets na ito ngayon are a little more “grown up”.
This is the stage where first time niya to feel rejected and to hear not so kind words thrown at her. It was a little challenging for me and Alvin kasi of course as parents, our first impulse was to shelter her from these feelings. However, prepare the kids nga for the road and not the road for the kids ang peg di ba? So I had to tell Anika that there will be bad situations like this that she will find herself in sa future. Hindi kako ito ang first time. Madaming madami pang dadating na ganyan kaya she shouldn’t cry. Mahirap i-explain sa bata that pangit man sabihin, it’s actually a cruel world out there. It’s not all flowers and rainbows and butterflies. Also, hindi lahat ng tao mababait and not all will like her regardless how hard she will try to be a good person. She will encounter all kinds of people and it’s up to her how these people will affect her. She needs to be stronger. And she has her family to always have her back.
I told Wowa about it. She said, “Hay naku talgaa. Dumadami ang problema pag lumalaki na mga anak. Wala pa diyan yung mga heartaches pag dalaga na talaga. Good luck when she comes to your room and cries on your shoulder and say thank you after.”
Malamang ako tinutukoy ng Nanay ko.
Lelz.
Speaking of which, this is the time also that she’s discovering about crushes na. Juskopo talaga. I learned about it because Lyn told us. Naghigh blood agad si Sombrero. Ang bata pa daw. I told him not to get mad and confront Anika otherwise, magtatago na yan ng feelings.
I talked to her. Napaamin ko naman without telling her that Lyn told us. I told her na I understand yang crush crush na yan. No need to keep it secret from me because I won’t get mad naman as long as she’s honest and as long as she will tell me everything all the time. Pero, will I tell Tatay daw? I crossed my fingers at my back and said that if she doesn’t like, we can keep it between us. Takot kasi kay Alvin si Anika eh. Nevertheless, hindi ko naman pwede itago ito kay Alvin. But for me, especially that my child is a girl, it’s very important that she feels that she can tell me everything. Para mabantayan ko. I don’t want her keeping secrets. Diyan nagsisimula ang problema, I’m telling you. Been there, done that. I am hoping for a very open communication with Anika until she grows up. Kailangan ko yata ng tutoring about this.
Di ba, very different na my concerns before compared to now? Dati dati, ang problema ko paano ko ba didisplinahin si Anika para hindi maging spoiled and the same time, hindi mabe-break yung spirit niya. Ngayon, ganire na. Hehe.
Motherhood is exciting and scary at the same time. Walang boring na moment.
Don’t you guys agree?