This variant of Covid-19 is more fatal than the one last year, ano? Or is it the same?
I feel like more people are dying now because of it. Walang dumadaan na linggo that I didn’t give condolences to someone. Yung Facebook wall ko parang obituary pa din so I seldom go there na lang. I get affected when I hear news that a loved one of a friend dies. Knock on wood, I’ve never experienced yung hard core grief. I know it’s inevitable but I dread it. Every time may mabalitaan ako na namatayan, I put myself in their shoes. Empath ba tawag dun? I’m like that. Kaya hindi ako pwede sumama sa mga nega people. I tend to absorb the energy around me. If I’m around people, I’m very conscious sa naaabsorb ko na aura. I put a wall pagmasyadong nega ang kausap ko.
Anyway, since I’m so morbid putting myself in their shoes, I realized that in the event that I die or someone leaves me, I want the people I love to know how much I love them and how much they mean to me.
Yan ang ineemote ko these past few days.
Do we tell the people we love how much we love them and how much they mean to us before kuhain sila or tayo ni God? Or we wait until too late na tapos hindi natin nasabi?
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I want Alvin to know how much I appreciate him. I have loved him since I was 14 years old and I love him until now. I want him to know that he will always be more than enough for me and Anika.
I want Anika to know that she’s my life. She made me a better person and I love her with everything I have.
I want Lolo Papa to know that he’s the best father ever and I love him very much. I have not been that a good daughter to him and I’m sorry. I am still hoping we will still have that Father-Daughter dance again.
I want Wowa to know that she’s my bestfriend. I love her very much and I couldn’t have gone through everything without her. I am who I am now because of her.
I am thankful for my parents because I know they have given me and my siblings the best that they can. I want to thank them for all the sacrifices, hard work and putting aside their differences when we’re together.
I want Toots and Noel to know that I love them very much and I wish we spent more time together. I wanna say thank you to Russ for taking care and loving Toots. I am looking forward to being her sister soon.
I want Faye to know that I love her and Isabel so much. She’s more than a real sister to me and I appreciate how much she loves Anika.
I want LT to know that I love her and that I am very thankful for all the sacrifices she made so that she can take care of me and my brothers. She will always be my second mom.
I want my in-laws to know that I appreciate them and I want to thank them for being good to Anika.
I want Coach to know that I love her and how much she has influenced me in a good way. Maayos ako lumaki dahil sa guidance niya.
I want my bestfriends to know that I love them and that I appreciate them so much. Hindi ko na sila iisa isahin kasi alam naman nila who they are kasi ninang sila lahat ni Anika. To those who I see often, Janis and Pineda, thank you for having my back and for being my sounding board. To those who I seldom get to spend time with, I am thankful for each one of them because all these years, they were there for me even don’t we don’t frequently see each other. Isang tawag lang, nandiyan na.
I want my office staff to know that I appreciate them. I will always have good intentions for them. I want Anne to know that I am thankful I have her, not only as a friend but as a great right hand woman. I want Bernard, Rod, Aris, Micai, MJ, Maan and the rest of the team to know that I had we are a great team because of them. I want to say thank you to my office friends for making work feel less work. Mami A, thank you for being a friend too.
To my cousins, college friends especially Ai and Mabes, friends, amigas, varsity-mates, volleyball moms friends, online mommy friends, blog readers, followers, I appreciate all the kinds words, messages and kamustahan they send my way. Maswerte ako because I have them.
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Parang gaga ko lang, ano? Lelz. But for real mga bakla, this pandemic made me realize that we should tell the people we love that we love them before we lose them or before they lose us. Para walang regrets. I wish there will be no more deaths. Kakaiba talaga these times. Kung ano ano na lang naiisip natin.
A few weeks ago, Wowa was telling me about some of her friends who were doing last wills and testaments na because of this pandemic. Pinapangalan na daw ang mga properties sa mga anak. Tinatanong ako ni Wowa ano daw sa properties niya ang gusto ko. I told her in jest na sa akin niya na ipangalan lahat and ako na bahala maghati-hati sa aming magkakapatid someday. Wag na kako siya magisip. Hahaha. The other day we video chatted and I told her about this book Huling Habilin that I bought before the pandemic started.
Loka loka daw ako. Tawa naman kami ng tawa. Nandun na kasi lahat eh from your burial wishes to social media password and management to bank accounts to properties. I have yet to fill it out kasi nakakatamad pa. Ang daming kailangan na information but being an OCD that I am, okay itong librong ito. I am not wishing to die this early but one thing I learned is that you will never know when you will go. It doesn’t hurt to be prepared.
To those of you who are asking where to buy this, here’s the Facebook link: https://www.facebook.com/HulingHabilinSuccessPlanner