Anika’s growing up so fast. Ang bilis lumaki pero hindi naman tumataba! Two years ago, we had her checked and her pedia said she had Primary Complex. She took antibiotics for six months. Akala ko tataba na after, hindi din pala. She eats a lot naman. She eats every now and then. Mahilig siya sa kutkutin but she doesn’t get fat.

I was stressing over this until I realize, wala namang paghuhugutan si Anika ng katabaan eh. Alvin and I were rail stick thin when we were kids. Maybe sa genes na niya yan ano? Look at her outfit of the day photo here.

Top: WOWA’S SECRET STORE; Leggings: H&M Kids; Boots: PAYLESS

Pinagmamasdan ko si Anika sometimes. She’s think but she has pwet. Namana niya sa akin. Lahat kasi na para sa boobs ko, napunta sa pwet ko. I mentioned this to Alvin.

ME: Babe, ihanda mo na ang shotgun mo. Sa hubog ng katawan ng anak mo, sexy ‘to paglaki.

Napailing lang ang Sombrero.

Anyway, matanong ko lang. How are you guys in taking in criticism? I have been in a lot of workshop last year and I noticed that they keep on telling everyone that in order for you to improve yourself, you have to get positive and negative feedback from your peers or subordinates.

I’m one of those people who cannot handle criticism well. Hindi naman, like, gusto ko nang sapakin yung nagsabi ng negative feed back sa akin, but I do get defensive. And I feel bad. Matagal before I forget that that person told me that. I think it’s because of my pride. It’s not surprising because I’m also like that when people tell nice things about me to my face. I don’t get defensive but I get really uncomfortable. This is different from, “Uy, Fleur, ganda mo today ah.”. I say “Thank you” back. Confidence with a heart ang peg. Okay lang yun. But when a person tells me nice things ng derederecho, naiilang ako. Dinadaan ko na lang sa acting giddy and stuff but the truth is, I really feel uncomfortable. It’s so weird because ang papansin ko na tao eh. Dapat feel na feel ko, right? But I don’t like being praised ng madaming madami. I would like it better if sa iba nila siguro sinasabi but not to me.

I realized this with myself when we had that workshop in Baguio. We were grouped and were tasked to tell nice things to each person. Bigay na bigay ako to give out compliments and say the nice things that I notice to every person who was in my group. Pero when it was my turn to receive compliments, parang ayaw ko na. Nahiya ako. It was flattering in a way because they were telling me nice things about myself that I didn’t actually know. Flattering but I was really uncomfortable. Hahaha!

Balik tayo dun sa negative feedback.

I told this friend last week that I don’t ask for negative feedback from my subordinates anymore because I kinda know what they’re all going to say. They’ll say I’m impatient. Grabe ako to push them. Mainitin ang ulo ko. And I listen to suggestions or feedback but I still do things my way. Pagpinuna ng masama ako about my work, I get mad.

FRIEND: Naku. Tama na tama ka diyan! Ganyan na ganyan ka nga. Pagpinuna ka sa trabaho mo, nagagalit ka.

As expected, I felt bad.

In my defense, I know I’m like that. I realize I get mad because I am very passionate about my work. If you say bad things about it, parang ako na din ang tinitira mo. However, though it may look like na tinatabla ko ang mga comments at the start, I ponder on them afterwards. Pagwala na yung nagsabi. I take in the suggestions after. Ginagawa ko naman because most of the time, I realize they have a point.

I know I have to work on a lot of things about myself. Self-improvement ang peg ko this year. It’s going to take time but I am aware.

Bow.

For this weekend, our Saturday plan was to take Anika to her pedia for a check up. Nothing major naman. Lagi kasi nangangalumata eyes niya and I’m bothered that she bruise easily. I want her pedia to see her. Baka she’s anemic or something (knock on wood). I remember being anemic when I was a kid. I’m praying she’s not but I want to be sure.

However, I was told last Friday night that her pedia will not be holding clinic the next day. I told Alvin and Anika this. Tuwang tuwa ang bagets because she doesn’t like going to the doctor’s clinic. Takot sa bakuna.

The next day, Anika requested to go to her Lola’s house to spend time with Gabo and her Ate Girlie. Alvin said he will push through with the termite control because he noticed that there are anay in the kitchen ceiling.

I suddenly had a free day!

I took advantage of this. I have been meaning to have a me-time to go shopping. Hindi pa ako huma-hard core holiday shopping so this is it! =)

Before I got ready to go out, I taught Anika how to make French Toast. Bonding time muna bago ako gumora.

She did all the flippin’ and cookin’ =)

Alvin arrived from biking when I was getting dressed.

ME: Babe! Wala akong masuot!

ALVIN: Impossible!

ME: Pinamigay ko na kaya halos lahat ng clothes ko!

After 5 minutes.

ME: Wala ako masuot!

ALVIN: If wala kang masuot, bawal ka na pumunta sa mall today.

I went out of our room fully dressed two minutes after.

ALVIN: Bakit ka nagmamadali?

ME: 930 na eh. I have to go!

ALVIN: 10am pa magbubukas ang mall eh.

ME: I know. I wanna be there first para hindi madami ang tao and para makadami ako.

ALVIN: Atat ka din eh.

Oh yes.

Here’s what I wore:

Inner top: ZARA; Kimono: STRADIVARIUS; Shorts: GUESS; Footwear: BIRKENSTOCK; Bag: F&F

I had so much fun being in the mall all by myself. I had lunch at Cibo and I took my time. Ang sarap ng feeling ng mag-isa ka lang and you’re not in a hurry. I stayed in the restaurant as long as I wanted to. I didn’t have to make conversation. I just ate while surfing online.

Everything was going great at lunch until Alvin sent me a photo of the “Queen Anay” that they caught at the side of our house. Do you know those small hill-like soil that you see in your houses that they said na bahay ng mga dwende? Bahay pala ng mga anay yun. Apparently we have a like that at the side of our house. They caught the “Queen Anay” there. I would show it to you here but it’s so gross I’m sure you won’t be able to “un-see” it. The termite control people said that it was the biggest “Queen Anay” they have every since.

ME: Did they catch the King Anay?

ALVIN: Hindi eh. Either nasa kabit niya siya or natimbrehan ni Queen Anay para tumakas.

Ang tino talaga kausap ng asawa ko.

Like super.

Alvin also said that the anti-termites people asked for the Queen Anay. Parang trophy daw kasi nila yun. Alvin even said that some people also eat that sa ibang country. Hindi ko sure if that is true or not. If it is, no. I will not even try to try it. Ewww. *goosebumps*

After a while, I had to go home na. Ang bigat na kasi ng dala ko. That’s the disadvantage of shopping by yourself. You don’t have somebody to help you.

Everywhere I looked that day, SALE ang nakikita ko. I was able to shop at Forever 21, H&M, Stradivarius, Bench, SM Department Store, Happy Skin and The North Face for Alvin. Weird nga lang when I was going through my purchases at home, hindi naman sale halos lahat ng nabili ko.

Oh well. Never mind. Happy naman akish =)

Ang dami pang stores ang hindi ko napasok! Zara, Gap, Old Navy, Tango and many more!

Pagoda cold wave lotion na din ako.

I’ll show you my loot as soon as I get my mannequin from Pineds. I’m soooo excited!!!

I got home around 4pm. I took a nap and then my in-laws invited us to have dinner at Vikings at SM BF to celebrate my BIL and bilas’ wedding anniversary.

Look how close Gabo and Anika are. I love family time!

Kami na ang pamilyang mahilig kumain sa labas.

We are the opposite of Alvin’s family. Sila, if there’s an occasion, they often celebrate with a handaan at home.

With my side of the family, we always eat out. It’s more comfortable with every one coming from different parts of the metro. Add the fact na tamad na kami magluto. I mean sila. Tamad na sila magluto because I do not know how to cook. Hehe.

For January, there are three of us who have birthdays: me (on the 2nd), LT (on the 4th) and Alvin (on the 20th). Last week, I texted and invited everyone for a birthday lunch celebration for me and LT. Hindi pa icecelebrate ang kay Alvin because we have a pamahiin that you shouldn’t celebrate your birthday before your actual birthday.

I told them that we’ll have lunch somewhere in Greenbelt 5 on a Sunday. Yung nakaraang Sunday yun. Alvin, Anika and I heard the 10:30am mass in Greenbelt. After that, we went to Chili’s, our family’s favorite restaurant.

Anika looked adorable in her Apartment 8 Clothing dress. Dapat lang kako, ang mahal eh! Hahahaha! It’s sulit though because (1) the dress was made from good quality material, (2) Anika loves it, (3) I love it and (4) the skirt balloons when she turns.

Dress: APARTMENT 8 CLOTHING ; Boots: PAYLESS

We had to stop Anika from twirling so much because nakikitaan siya. Naha-high blood ang Tatay.

ALVIN: Sa susunod magpantalon kayong dalawa lagi ha?

ME: But why?!

ALVIN: Alam mo ba na ang gusto ko sa babae eh yung balot na balot?!

ME: Teh, bakit ako ang pinakasalan mo? Bakit ako teh?

ALVIN: Ewan ko ba!

Hahaha!

Here’s what I wore that day:

Dress:LITTLE LAUREN & CO CLOTHING; Shoes: COTTON ON; Bag: RAGS2RICHES

Nice my dress ano? Check out the Little Lauren & Co. Clothing. They have matchy matchy mommy and daughter dresses too. You can follow them their Instagram account to see the pretty dresses: @littlelaurenandcompanyclothing

See how feel na feel ng bagets her dress.

We arrived at Chili’s Restaurant first. Anika wanted to watch the Disney cartoons on the TV by the bar so she went to sit with the other kids.

When I looked up from my phone, eto ang nakita ko.

Sinong juma-jaworski?! =D

The gang was complete!

For their wedding, Fonz gifted  Faye with a Fujifilm Instax. We had a blast trying it out. Ang lakas maka-nostalgic ng photos. Kalalabas pa lang from the Instax, parang pang throwback na agad.

This is my favorite photo =)

For this year, I want to have more get togethers with my family. Ang dalang lang kasi namin magkita kita. Not cool. I also would want us to have more out of town trips. Kahit local lang. Relax lang.

Are there beaches in the south that you can recommend? Nakaka-umay na din ang Virgin Beach Resort. We wanna try new beaches naman =)

Last weekend, Alvin called me to tell me that one of our wedding godfather is sick. He’s battling with cancer and it all came super sudden lang. The worse part was grabe na daw the cancer when they discovered it. This news saddened us so much because ang bait bait talaga ng ninong namin na iyon. He’s very kind, unassuming and I always see him with a smile on his face.

Eto na naman ako sa ka-praningan ko.

As usual, I related myself to his situation. I became paranoid. You see, I dunno if I told you na this, I do not have problems with dying. As in wala talaga. Eh kung yun yung naka-tadhana sa akin eh, I cannot really do something about it. The only thing that would depress me would be leaving Alvin and Anika behind. The thought of them not having me in their future makes me really sad. If God will take me now (knock on wood), I won’t be able to be there and plan Anika 7th and 18th birthday. I won’t be able to be with her when she graduates or enter college. Yung wedding niya wala ako. Ang daming milestones that I won’t be there to witness it.

Yan ang nakakalungkot na part.

Since we do not know when we will be taken by our Creator, I have a new segment in my blog. Inspired by the dad who left letters to his 3 year old son that his son to guide him through his life after he dies, gagawa din ako niyan. If, luckily, hindi ako ma-dedo anytime soon, Anika and I can still both look back and read the different blog posts in this segment. Future reference, ika nga nila.

The title of this new segment is Dear Anika.

My First Dear Anika is When She Graduates Kindergarten.

Dear Anika,

Congratulations on your kindergarten graduation, sweetheart!

I know you did well because I saw how hard you studied during your exams. I won’t be surprised if your Tatay will go up the stage with you because you’re an Eagle Certificate Awardee. Hindi talaga ako nagugulat. Mana ka kasi sa akin ‘Nak. Hehe.

This is just a start of your amazing journey. I know you’re scared of transferring to a bigger building that Grade One kids will share with older students but as you go through those gates, just imaging me holding your hand. Ganyan naman talaga tayo every first day of school di ba? Hindi ko nga lang alam who’s holding on tighter, ikaw ba or ako. Looks like it’s me because, every year, I can see you all raring to go and start the new school year with your old and new classmates tapos ako nakahawak lang sayo. Parang ayaw pa kita i-let go because ang bilis ng panahon, I can’t catch up. It was like yesterday lang when I went with you on the first day of your toddler class.

And now, you’re going to start grade school after this summer!!! *tears*

I can totally hear your voice in my head, “Nanay! Stop being overdramatic!”

My advice to you is study hard but do not forget to enjoy and have fun. Make friends. It is during this time that you will meet your future bestfriends (if you haven’t met them yet). Do not be shy. Join lang ng join sa mga clubs. Salihan mo what interests you. I would love to see you be a Star Scout just like what I was when I was in first grade. Hindi ko lang sure if type mo but if you like, I swear to you, you will have fun talaga learning all about camping and all the things that come with it.

Osha, congratulations again sweetheart. I’m super duper proud of you!

Love,

Nanay

I worry about future problems. As in like before I sleep or pagnatutulala ako, I think about it. You know the saying that goes,”The best has yet to come.”? Hindi ako natutuwa diyan. Being a pessimistic person that I am, ang nakikita ko diyan is if may best, meron din worst. So may saying din dapat na “The worst has yet to come.”.

Wala lang siguro nagpopost ng meme na yan because ang nega.

Being an Alpha female, tapos naging mommy pa, naka-anticipate ako sa mga problems that would come my way. I always pray for that. “Lord, please do not give me a problem that I cannot carry.”. Sabi nga ng mga matatanda, God will not give you something that you cannot solve. Kung may problem ka daw ngayon, nandiyan yan kasi kaya mo.

I nod my head when they tell me that.

However, what I really think is, they’re telling you that para kayanin mo. Para hindi ka mag-give up.

Last year, Alvin, our families and I were tested because we were given a problem na, for me, malubha talaga. Super grown up problems. At first halos bumigay ako. My anxiety depression kicked in. It took me a few days to fight it without medicine. It was solved. We bought a house and supposed to lived happily every after.

Hindi pala ganun.

The other day, it haunted us back. We were told na hindi pa pala solved! Worse, itinakbo pera namin. Mga more than half a million pesos levels. When Alvin told me about it, I had to hold on to something so I won’t fall. Literally, bibigay sana ang tuhod ko.

Alvin tried to fix it yesterday. Last night, Alvin told me of the things they were told to do para maayos. I asked him to call Wowa na to ask what we can do. I called Vivian for legal advice.

Surprisingly, I was very composed on the outside. Alvin was almost breaking down so hindi ko siya pwedeng sabayan sa drama. He needs to see that I’m strong. I think na-achieve ko naman. I took over. Guided by Vivian, I told him the step by step of the things that he has to accomplish and what he had to do and not do para maayos ang lahat.

I confided to Vivian that I’m palpitating so bad sa stress.

“Pera lang yan mare. Ibuhos mo sa pag-aayos. Walang oras ma-depress.”

“Mabuti nga na ngayon dumating yan na may trabaho kayo at income at walang sakit.”

May sense. She was right. I went out of the house to tell Alvin that.

Inabutan kong nakatulala sa labas with a drink in his hand ang Alvin. I told him what Vivian said. Pinep talk ko siya ng bongga.

And then Alvin told me that what pains him the most was not dahil binigyan siya ng problem na ganito. It was knowing that he’s the one causing us all the stress and pain ngayon sa family niya (esp to his mom) and sa akin. Eh in fact siya daw dapat ang nagaayos ng problema namin and nagproprotect sa amin sa mga ganitong situations. Hindi daw the other way around.

I told him,

“Babe, all your life naging mabuti kang anak. As in walang masusumbat sayo ever ang mga magulang mo. As for being a father, you are perfect. As for being a husband, hindi ka nga lang sweet, pero mabuti ka sa akin.”

Natawa siya dun sa part na hindi sweet.

“Wag mo nang isipin yan kasi naging mabuti ka naman sa amin. We are not mad and we are not taking this against you. Ang goal natin now is to fix this as soon as possible. Pera lang yan. Hindi mo naman controlled ang mga unos na dadating sa buhay natin eh. For better or worse nga di ba? Sino pa ba maaasahan mo sa panahon na ito kung hindi ako and ang pamilya mo?”

“Now, pull yourself together. Tigilan mo yan inom na yan. Kaya natin ito. Maghilamos ka na dun and go to Anika. Naperfect niya yung Math and Science subjects niya kasi ako ang nagturo. One mistake siya sa English and Filipino kasi ikaw ang nagturo. Charot. Sige na. Tama na yan.”

You know what they say about the wives/mom being the ilaw ng tahanan? Tayo din ang haligi. Ginoogle ko ang haligi. Poste pala yun. So tama, tayo din ang haligi ng tahanan. We are the ones who give the family support. Feel na feel ko yan now.

I’m sorry I cannot elaborate our current problem ha? Maselan eh. Tska feeling ko hindi pwede. Saka na siguro if it’s fixed na. Magkwento ako ulit. Please help in praying for us okay?

Dear Anika,

The other night, we had this conversation. You were just five years old.

ANIKA (holding a small piece of paper): Nanay, my classmate Gab gave me his phone number.

ME: Okay. But don’t call him.

ANIKA: Why?

ME: Girls do not call boys in their houses.

Don’t look at me. I grew up with that rule, thanks to Wowa.

ANIKA: But Nanay. Gab likes me…

I looked at you with one arched eyebrow.

ANIKA (while rolling your eyes): Gab. Likes. Me. But. As. A. Friend. Lang.

Whew.

ME: You still can’t call him.

ANIKA: But what if he wants to talk to me?

ME: Tell him to call you at home.

ANIKA: Geez. I don’t even know our landline number!

And then you walked out of the room.

To tell you honestly, hindi ako prepared. I’m not prepared to talk to you about boys until you’re like 18 years old. Self denial that I’m writing about this topic to you before topics like “When you graduate middle school” or “When you turn seven years old” or “When you become a teenager”.

Pero maghanda ka. This is just one of the many blog post that I will write to you about boys. Hindi dahil expert ako diyan but because I want to be sure, I got everything covered.

Now that you have discovered that there are “boys”, I hope it stays just like that muna. Wag ka magmadali anak. Befriend them. Wala munang feelings feelings. Hindi mo pa yan alam, believe me. Keep it platonic. You are very young. I swear to you madaming madaming boys ka pa that you will meet.

Since I’m not there anymore, as much as possible, please do not keep secrets with your Tatay. I will make him swear on my death bed to keep an open mind. Based on experience kasi, the more na hinihigpitan ang mga bata, the more they keep secrets. I do not like that to happen to you.

I remember you Tatay telling me a few weeks ago. You got that piece of paper with Gab’s number on it.

ANIKA: Tatay, I have Gab’s number.

And then you went to the kitchen where your yaya was. After that, your Tatay saw you go to your yaya’s room. You closed the door ng slight but Tatay can still see you through the opening. He saw you sit on your yaya’s bed and get your yaya’s phone from your shorts’ pockets (that was the one you got from the kitchen). You had the phone in one hand and Gab’s number in the other hand. You were dialing then putting the phone to your ear. Paulit ulit na ganun. Judging from the impatient look on your face, hindi mo yata ma-contact. Kung hindi lang daw ang cute mo tingnan, ha-high blood-in na daw ang Tatay mo. And then your Tatay went by the door.

ALVIN: Anika what are you doing?

You jerked daw kasi nagulat ka and stuffed the phone under your lap!

ANIKA: Nothing Tatay. I’m totally doing nothing!

Hindi alam ng Tatay mo kung matatawa muna siya or magtatawag na ng mga ka-brod niya to tell them to prepare because the time that he is dreading is coming.

Hahahaha!

But seriously sweetheart, wag ka muna magmadali. Be friends lang muna with them ha? I wish life would give you a good guy who you can call a best friend. Yung tunay platonic lang ha? Introduce him to your Tatay and make that bestfriend earn your Tatay’s trust. Iba din kasi pagmay best friend ka na boy. Matutulungan ka sa mga boy questions mo without fear of being taken advantage of.

So that’s it.

I love you sweetheart.

Love,

Nanay

Hello everyone. Thanks for all your messages and comments. I’m still okay. Humihinga pa naman.

The past week was emotionally terrible for me and Alvin. Over acting talaga ang stress and worry of what will happen na to us. We have consulted accountants, Certified Public Accountants and CPA lawyers. Halos every four hours nagbabago decisions namin ni Alvin on how to solve this. Lahat ng tao may comment and advice. I met with Vivian yesterday. If there is one lawyer that I trust, it’s her. She gave us the pros and cons of all the decisions that we plan to make. Nakakastress talaga mag-isip. Ang wrinkles ko lumalim, mga bakla. My skin’s breaking out. There are days that I don’t eat. Wala talaga akong gana. There are other days naman, I eat everything that I see. Ang sakit na ng foot nails ko because I’m due for a pedicure two weeks ago pa.

Last Thursday night, 12:30 am na ng Friday, Alvin and I are still outside our house talking about what to do. Last Friday, I went home early because nanlalata ako. I took Alvin and Anika out to dinner para mawala lang iniisip ni Alvin. We got home around 7 pm. Humiga ako sa sala, si Alvin nasa duyan sa labas. Nakatulog na pala si Alvin sa labas. I fell asleep na also in our living room. I just transferred in our room because Anika woke me up around 9:30 pm. Lipat na daw ako sa room. She has already washed and in her PJs. I asked who washed and changed her. Siya daw.

ANIKA: I washed myself and changed my clothes by myself. Tulog na kayo ni Tatay eh.

Nakakatouch because Anika took care of herself. She’s pulling her own weight during times like these. Mag-isa yan nag-aral this week. She fixed her beddings herself.

Hay.

Swerte ako sa anak.

Currently, depending on what will happen tomorrow, we know na what to do. I was stressing because as of this morning, we were set on selling the house. Ang laki kasi talaga ng kailangan namin to settle. Punyemas yan, hindi ko pa nga nafifeature yung bahay ko sa YouTube channel ko, ibebenta ko na agad. However, this afternoon, parang may positive developments. May slight chance that we won’t lose our home. I am crossing my fingers.

I know. Ang kalmado ko ano? Facade lang, mga bakla. I have to be strong for Alvin. Except for this one time na hindi ko na kasi kinaya (Wednesday ata yun), I’ve never cried in front of him. I don’t cry here in the house. Sa akin humuhugot ang asawa ko ng lakas. This is the most vulnerable that I have seen him in. Sa office ko ako umiiyak. Janis calls me. I talk to Vivian. Ka-viber ko si Pineda. Umiiyak ako sa mga nakakausap ko. I cannot not cry. Jusko. Sasabog siguro ako. The important thing is that I am okay when I’m in front of Alvin.

Anyways, hindi pwede huminto ang mundo ko because of this grown up problems. It’s so grown up and hindi siya bagay sa akin. Please just do continue praying for us ha?

To feel better, tara let’s talk about clothes.

This is what Anika and I wore today when we went to Alvin’s relatives for the Sto. Nino fiesta.

Top: BENCH; Shorts: STRADIVARIUS; Sandals: H&M; Sunglasses: PRADA

Wag niyo na ako i-judge because you’re not a judge. Charot. Di ba nagshopping ako after my birthday before all of these happened? That was the weekend before we discovered our problem. Nawalan ako ng gana to show you my shopping loot after. Ang off din kasi and ang wrong timing i-blog. I’ll show them to you na lang through my OOTDs.

I love the lacey shorts that I got from Stradivarius. Sabit nga lang ako ng sabi kung saan saan.

The Soft Shirt from Bench is a good discovery too.

The fabric is similar to a jersey material. It’s soft, light and flowy. It’s very forgiving sa figure. The best is mura lang siya. I got it for 2 for Php 549 only.

I also got the V-neck shirts too with the same material.

Winner talaga.

Anika naman, this is the outfit she put together.

Top: GUESS KIDS; Shorts: H&M KIDS; Rubber shoes: SKECHERS; Sunglasses: SM KIDS

That’s it. Hopefully, this week is a better one for us.

Good night guys.

I’m sorry I do not have good news to make kwento.

My youngest brother had a heart attack last night and is now in the ICU. No, it’s not Toots. Si Noel ito. He’s the one you guys frequently ask bakit hindi ko nasasali sa kwento ko. He’s the one who I have not spoken to in around three years. Mahabang kwento.

Anyway, last night daw, he went boxing. Then after, he felt extreme chest pains. He drove himself to the hospital. Heart attack na pala yun. Wowa went to the hospital last night and was the one who told Toots. Toots was the one who told me.

He’s in the ICU now because they found cardiac enzymes in his blood test. Cardiac enzymes tells us that there are damaged muscles in the heart. Something like that. He will stay in the ICU until bumaba or mawala yung enzymes na yun. Wowa already spoke to the doctor. Noel is okay daw and hindi lang daw kinaya ng heart niya yung over exertion ng boxing.

He’s fine now. That’s what’s important.

I freaked out yata my Facebook friends when I wrote that as my status in my Facebook wall. I needed to look for the number of the IBM Plaza clinic. Wala kasing sumasagot sa trunk line. Nakakatouch yung mga messages and those people who extended their help. Super thank you to my CSA schoolmates Kai and Tracy, I was able to get the number. I needed to get in touch with them for the Philhealth form of Noel. Thank you also to everyone who said are praying for my brother. Thank you for all your messages, calls and comments. Our family really appreciate it.

Eto na.

When I got home, Anika was crying.

ANIKA: I’m so sorry Nanay! I’m so so so so sorry! Please don’t get mad at me! I’ll never do it again.

ME: What did you do?

She shaved off part of her eyebrow!

Lekat na yan!

Kalbo ang middle ng right eyebrow niya. She shaved it using her yaya’s shaver.

YAYA: Nakatago nga yan Ate eh. Hindi ko alam paano niya nakuha.

Riiiiiiight….

ALVIN: Tutubo naman yan ulit.

ME: Tutubo nga kaso how sure are you na tutubo siya ng maayos?!

Emergerd talaga. As in emergerd.

Kailangan sabay sabay ang concerns sa buhay ko ha? Sabay sabay talaga?!

Grrrrr!

Mercury retrograde, when will you end?!

Last Sunday was the Feast of the Sto. Nino. This means fiesta sa Sto. Nino Paranaque (where Arista Place is located) and this is where Alvin’s relatives lives. Nakikifiesta kami every year.

We started doing this when we got married. It’s all new to me because never ako nakifiesta all my life. Pagfiesta pala, all households prepare food. Ang mga tao pupunta sa iba’t ibang houses to eat. It doesn’t matter if you know them or not. Every one is welcome in their homes. Everybody’s on the street. May band, buntings and madaming sayahan.

Alvin didn’t feel like going to the fiesta this year because of what we’re going through. I told him to go para makapagdasal na din kami kay Sto. Nino.

So there. After the mass, we sat in the front pew and prayed. Naiyak kami talaga mag-asawa. Anika was looking at us. Weird na weird siya.

One thing na maganda lang that we’re getting out of the problems we are encountering now is that nagiging closer pa kami ni Alvin. Halos 24/7 niyo ba naman pagusapan yung problema eh. Alvin makes me laugh amidst all these. We’re cuddling more.

ALVIN: Gusto mo ba magpamassage Babe? Or cuddle na lang tayo?

Cuddle. I pick cuddle over a massage anytime.

Here are the photos from that day.

There you go!

Happy fiesta!!!

Every year, Alvin and I make sure that we give back to others the blessing we have received.

This year, we were thinking of throwing a party for the kids in one of the orphanages near where we live. Naka pause lang because of what’s happening to us right now. Hindi ko maasikaso.

But to all of you guys who have the same yearly tradition like us pero wala pang naiisip where to share it, I have an idea for you.

Two More Kids is a fundraising project for the Philippine General Hospital Pediatric Neurosurgical-Craniofacial Operating Unit (PGH-PNCOU).

The PGH-PNCOU was founded in 2007 by neurosurgeon Gerardo D. Legaspi, MD to help underprivileged children with congenital malformations of the brain, spinal cord and face.

Before the Unit was created, patients had to wait several days, weeks, or even months to get a schedule for surgery; many impoverished patients and their families had no choice but to camp out at PGH premises until they are called. Through the PGH-PNCOU, volunteer doctors are able to perform surgery on two children per day, eliminating lines and giving patients timely treatment. The Unit has performed surgeries on over 2,000 children since 2007.

The Unit relies entirely on the kindness of individual donors and corporations. We appeal to your kind heart to support the PGH-PNCOU. Together, let us help TWO MORE KIDS each day.

HOW CAN YOU HELP?

PGH-PNCOU accepts donations in cash or in check, payable to Brain Foundation of the Philippines, Inc.

• Please deposit your check donation to BPI Account Number 4931-0037-18
• Kindly email your deposit slip to Ms. Naty Inigo at brain_foundation_ph@yahoo.com
• On the subject line, please write “TWO MORE KIDS“
• Indicate your full name, address and contact number so that the Brain Foundation secretariat can acknowledge your donation.

Donation may also be sent directly to:

PGH-PNCOU
c/o brain_foundation_ph@yahoo.com
Neurology Office, Ward 5
Philippine General Hospital
Taft Avenue Ermita, Manila 1000

Yesterday, ang sakit ng batok ko. The whole day. Kini-keribelles ko lang because ako ang magrereport sa ManCom. After we reported, I asked permission from my boss if I can go undertime at work. Ang sakit kako ng batok ko. He said okay and magpa-BP muna daw ako sa clinic bago umuwi. Twenty years na, wala pa din yung magbi-BP so I went home na lang. Ang sakit na talaga ng batok ko. I just wanted to rest. When I got home, humilata ako agad sa sala. Alvin took my BP using the Omron Digital BP gadget that we bought in Mercury Drug. Eighty something over fifty something daw ang BP ko. That’s low.

The next day, which is today, masakit pa din ang batok ko. My blood pressure this morning was 84/47. That is super low. I took a leave off work.

Eh birthday today ni Mr. Sombrero.

I asked him what his plans were. Wala siya sa mood magsaya-saya. He will just go to the office daw and to the Marian Church in Tagaytay.

Sumama na lang ako sa Marian Church. Gusto kong madasal dun. Kailangan kong magdasal pa more.

Ang galgal na Anika hindi nagpaiwan. Sama din daw siya. She will pray din daw for her Tatay and for her Ninong Noel. So she was also absent in school.

These are our outfits of the day:

Top: FROM JAPAN; Shorts: MANGO

Top: GINGERSNAPS; Shorts: SM DEPARTMENT STORE; Shoes: SM KIDS

All that I was praying for to God, Jesus, Mama Mary and to all the saints and religious statues there was sana ibigay nila kay Alvin ano man ang pinagdadasal niya. That and please make my brother get well soon.

It was lunch time when we finished so we ate at this RMS restaurant.

This is Alvin’s birthday lunch meal.

We got home around 3pm.

Ang simple lang ng birthday celebration ni Alvin this year. His family is here at our house now because I prepared a simple dinner for them. Makapagcelebrate man lang kahit konti lang. Hindi man ganun ka-saya because sa dami ng problema namin now, the important thing is we are all together.

PS. Alvin wanted to take me na to the doctor but I begged off. Sabi ko ischedule na lang ang doctor’s visit this weekend. Ayaw ko naman nasa hospital kami ng birthday niya. I told him if tomorrow hindi pa din ako okay, I’ll go have myself checked agad.

Happy birthday Babe! We love you!

I was telling one of my bestfriends yesterday I don’t like talking to anybody anymore. Gusto ko na lang magpaka-hermit crab until all of my problems go away. Ang nega na kasi ng dating ko eh. I feel nahahawaan ko na kayong lahat ng negativity. For a masayahing tao like me, that is a totally depressing thought. Gusto ko laging masaya. I want to be the one to spread that positivity around, not the other way around.

Think positive thoughts lang daw.

Yan ang pagkakabusy-han ko ngayon. And then very timely, one of my blog readers left a comment in one of my posts yesterday. She shared with me this quote:

“God uses the experience of life to cause us to see that there is much more inside of us than we ever knew.”

Diyos ko. Tumpak na tumpak yan.

When I was having my treatment pa for my anxiety depression so many years back, I asked the psychiatrist, “Doc, after I get well, babalik ba ako sa ganitong state? Ayaw ko na kasi eh. Sinusumpa ko talaga etong pinagdadaanan ko ngayon.”. The doctor said, “It may be triggered again by extreme circumstances like an unbearable problem or death in the family. However, what is good is that you know already the feeling. You know when it’s coming. You are now able to anticipate it and prevent it.”

All these time, naka-anticipate ako dun.

Nung dumating sa amin etong pinagdadaanan namin ngayon, I can feel ang careful ng mga tao around me. Akala nila I will break anytime. Kasama na dun ang asawa ko to a point that he screens what he tells me.

I wanna roll my eyes at them.

Kaya ko ito noh. The last thing I want is pity. That is the reason why kahit na grabe ang sakit ng batok ko, hindi ako pumupunta sa doctor. Kinakaya ko. Baka kasi when they find out na I went to the hospital, baka sabihin nila, weak ako. I do not want that. I’m not week. Kaso nga last night, Alvin demanded that he take me na to the ER. More kwento on that later.

Anyway, I’m strong. I may have had anxiety depression dati, I know how to prevent it from attacking again. That is my advantage from other people, I think. Yung iba, hindi nila kaya i-handle ang feelings nila kaya nadedepress sila. Ako kaya ko. And I have a strong support group. Swerte ako dun.

I’m also lucky because I have a very, very smart daughter. Look at the report card she brought home the other day:

Check out her Math grade! Ninety seven!!! Her hard work really paid off!

Positive vibes brought to you by Anika Summer =D

Good job sweetheart!

My batok started aching last year pa. I thought it was just because of stress.

Last week, when all of these brouhaha happened, my nape started aching like crazy to a point that the whole back of my head would hurt. It would become scarier because magmamanhid yung left part of my face. Ano nga english ng manhid?

Anyway, since last Monday, I started taking my blood pressure using the digital bp eklaver that Alvin bought at Mercury. I often get 80 something over fifty something. That’s low given that my normal BP is 90/60. I got worried last Wednesday night because my BP dropped to 84/47. Tapos ang sakit pa ng batok ko.

ALVIN: Babe, pumunta na tayo ng doctor.

ME: Gabi na. Tomorrow na lang. At saka may meeting pa ako sa Meralco tomorrow. Important yun.

Naiinis na sa akin ang Alvin.

Wag niyo akong tularan.

After my meeting yesterday, my nape and head started hurting like sobra. I called Alvin to tell him and he told me to go home. Pumunta na daw kami sa Asian Hospital. Baka sumasakit na nga ang batok ko sa sobrang low BP.

Off we went to the ER of Asian Hospital. Ang daming kids ang may sakit =c The nurse started interviewing me. They took my BP and it was 90/60 naman. The doctor saw me and told me that he’ll have to run some tests sa akin: CBC, ECG and Xray. I also told the doctor about the whiplash that happened to me in 2009. Sabi kasi ng doctors that time, after a few years ko pa daw mararamdaman yung after effects nun eh. Baka this is it.

I hate having a CBC procedure. I hate having my blood extracted. Natatakot ako. Yung hindi birong takot levels.

Alvin knows this so he was making all these corny daddy jokes on the med tech. Ang pretty niya kasi e.

This was us before the extraction. The med tech was having a hard time finding a vein. Story of my life.

This was us while my blood was being extracted.

They did ECG and Xray na din.

While in line sa Xray, there was this old couple beside us waiting. They were both like in their late fifties. The woman was in a wheelchair like me while her husband stood beside her, looking at his phone while holding his wife’s bag. The woman looked pleasant and ang pretty niya. The husband looked busy and serious.

WOMAN: Daddy, nawawala na yung sakit. Nageeffect na yung gamot na binigay nila. Uwi na tayo.

MAN: Natatakot ka na naman.

WOMAN: Hindi. Okay na ako. Uwi na tayo.

MAN: Mag-xray ka. Natatakot ka lang eh.

He looked serious but he was looking fondly at his wife.

I smiled at them.

ME (to Alvin): Ganyan tayo Babe in 20 years.

WOMAN (smiling at me): Makulit din?

Hehe.

After an hour of waiting, the ER doctor went to us again. My blood tests are normal. Thank God. I was thinking baka super anemic na ako or something. My ECG is okay too. They have findings nga lang in my X-Ray.

I have Cervical Spondylosis. In my understanding from what the doctor explained, nagwe-wear na yung cartilage between the bones in my spine. The accident may have accelerated the wearing process. Me carrying super heavy bags everyday is another cause. Maling way of exercising is another.

Aside from that, I also have a straightened cervical spine which may be due to muscle spasm.

These two were also aggravated by all the stress that I’m going through. Kaya din mababa ang BP ko, dahil sa stress.

Hindot na stress yan.

They gave me pain relievers and muscle relaxant. I asked if I can exercise, pwede naman daw basta walang heavy lifting. Good bye sit ups muna ako until the pain’s gone.

And dream come true ni Alvin, I was asked to be in bed rest for 2-3 days. This is my medical certificate. We all cannot understand the handwriting of the doctor. Hahaha!

So leave na naman ako sa work today. Nakahilata lang ako the whole day. I’m finishing this book. Maganda. I can’t put it down.

Mala-hunger games ang dating. Most probably they’s turn this into a movie too.

So there. I’m very thankful that they didn’t see anything serious. Kinabahan ako dun ng slight. Alvin’s relieved too. I am relieved too. I don’t want to stress him more.

They said that when someone is going through something, that person’s support system should be good. Otherwise, baka bumigay ang taong iyon sa pagsubok.

In my case, I have Alvin with me. Minsan nga lang, since may dinadala din ang asawa ko, nabibigatan ako. I need to step back and zone him out. Masisiraan kasi ako ng bait if I don’t do that. In these times, I am thankful that I have my best friends. I know they are just one phone call away. Si Wowa hindi ko muna ginagambala because she’s taking care of my brother in the hospital.

I feel luckier than other people who are going through something because I have my blog readers. Overwhelming ang support that I receive from you guys. I receive a lot of encouraging messages and emails from you. Madami pala sa inyo ang nagbabasa ng Bible ano? Thank you for the bible verses that you send me. Minsan hindi ko sila gets pero thank you for the thought.

Kaya naman guys, I want to give back. I was supposed to do this Christmas/Birthday giveaway a few weeks back but I didn’t have the time. So eto na yun! I’m thinking of holding a small Mommy Fleur Day if makaluwag luwag na emotionally. It will be just simple para lang din matuloy. Hindi ko na bobonggahan. Kain lang tayo sa labas then konting chikka =) Osige, madaming chikka. Hahaha!

Pagpasensyahan niyo na ang simple gifts ko to some of you. You know the drill. Please leave your name and your email address in the comment section below. The five winners will be drawn manually =)

GIVEAWAY #1: Pretty wrapping paper that I got from Paper Chic Studio and Marithe Francois Girbaud wallet

GIVEAWAY #2: A fluffy baby blanket and a Starbucks tumbler

GIVEAWAY #3: A Cherry Blossom lotion, shower gel and cologne spray from The Body Shop and a little girl fabric necklace from Little Luli.

GIVEAWAY #4: A Bungalow 300 throw pillow case and a Zara Rose Eau de Toilette.

GIVEAWAY #5: Pouch, Argan All Around from Zen Nutrients and an Enchanted perfume from Marks and Spencer.

Thanks for joining and good luck!

I love you guys!

Ang daming sumali sa giveaway ko!!!!!

Gorabelles lang mga bakla. Let’s end the giveaway this Friday. That can give you guys more time to go and check my blog if ever busy kayo this week. I’ll draw the winners this weekend =)

Before anything else, here’s my outfit of the day last Tuesday when I reported to ManCom.

Dress: FOREVER 21; Shoes: JANILYN; Necklace: Piesa

My dress daw didn’t look that flattering on me. The cut of the middle of the dress kasi is just above the tummy area. When I go back to my 105 lbs, gaganda na yan sa akin. Dapat lang gumanda siya sa akin. I bought the same dress in other colors eh =/ I’m wearing there my favorite black shoes. I love those shoes talaga. It’s the closest I can get to a YSL Tribute. And the heels, boy, you gotta see the heels. Pwede mo ipukpok sa kaaway mo pagnapikon ka. Lol.

Anyway, I noticed that there are a few blog readers who have been sending me emails na may pare-parehas na tema. They tell me that they are inspired by Alvin and my love story. Napaka-swerte ko daw because I found love. Some were already almost giving up with love and then they read my story, nabubuhayan daw sila ng loob. Bad things happened daw to them that made them swear off love na. They got terribly hurt to a point that they don’t believe that true love exists. Napakaganda daw ng nangyari sa love life ko.

Naku mga ateng, kung alam niyo lang what I went through before my love story ended with Alvin.

When I was in High School, there was this boy (there’s always naman this certain boy in High School eh, diba ladies?! *wink*). He was two years my senior. Ang pogi talaga. Matangkad. May dimple. Ang ganda pa ng apelido. I couldn’t believe it when he courted me. Sinagot ko na agad mga bakla. Ang pogi talaga eh. Ang galing pa magbasketball. I can say that he was my first real boyfriend. Abot langit ang kilig ko when he picks me up in school. Kulang na lang, iparada ko siya sa buong Colegio San Agustin. I would think about him while I was in class. Punong puno my school notes with his name. The only time that I wasn’t thinking of him was when I was playing volleyball. Nandun naman kasi siya in EVERY game. He was so supportive. Sobrang supportive, hindi na pala pumapasok. Anyway, our relationship ran for two years. In those two years, three times niya ako tinwo time. I swear. Thrice! I was so into him that time that I just forgave and forgave him. I thought I would never love somebody that much anymore. I was 16 and I was going through all those painful moments. We finally separated when he went out with one of my friends.

Fast forward to 9 years after. I was in an undefined relationship with this boy who I thought was the one. Ang pogi ulit. Ang tangos ng ilong. He and I were brought up in two very different environment. Iba siya from all of my past “sheltered” boyfriends. Amazed na amazed ako sa kaniya. Parang ang street smart. Mukhang tuwang tuwa din siya sa akin because he liked me. At different points in the course of the relationship, he told me he loved a couple of times. I learned a lot of things from him. Love na love ko din family niya because they were all so nice to me. The problem was he was 4 years my junior. After a few months of exclusively dating, he decided that he couldn’t commit. He was just too young and I was already entering the marrying age. Pressure. Marami pa daw siyang pangarap sa buhay. He couldn’t commit but he couldn’t let me go either. Since he said love daw niya ako, I decided to wait for him. We were “together” for three years. I can’t say that I was miserable naman that time kasi ginusto ko naman yun because somehow he made me feel happy. Kami yung tipong masaya na basta we were together whatever it was we were doing. Isaw sa kanto. TV marathon. Movies. However, I was in limbo in those three years. Nakakaloka. I couldn’t justify my anger when I caught him going out with other girls. Hindi naman kasi kami technically kami eh. Ano “right” ko? Madaming pain. Eventually, by the end of those three years, I was so tired na of waiting. That was also the time when Alvin and I were starting to get back together. When I told him about it, pinuntahan pa ako niya ako sa bahay. We talked. I remember talking from 11pm to 3am. Sure na ba daw ako. May iyakan na naganap but we parted as friends.

In between those two men in my life, I encountered other heartaches in different levels. Silang dalawa lang ang memorable for me kasi first and last.

Why am I telling you this?

I’m telling you this because I don’t want you to give up on love. Love lang tayo ng love. Walang masama sa magmahal basta may itinitira kayo for yourselves so that you can get back up again after you fall. Do not give up on love. It will come. Sometimes nga, love is just right in front of you. Kung saan saan pa kayo tumitingin.

Look what happened to me and Alvin =)

I received a few compliments on my outfit today.

Dress: COTTON ON; Cardigan: STRADIVARIUS; Shoes: CHARLES AND KEITH

Pumayat daw ako.

I don’t believe them because I gained 10 lbs.

Akala lang nila pumayat ako because lumaki ang boobs ko. The ratio of my boobs to my tummy ay lumaki hence the illusion that I got sexier.

You know I’m flat chested so how did I do that?

Four magic words.

Wacoal Push Up Bra.

To all my flat chested readers, the Wacoal Push Up Bra will be your next best friend. Get the T-shirt Push Up Bra. Padded na siya then push up pa. Maximum effort.

I love it so much that I bought three more.

Ang lakas maka-proportionate ng curves eh.

Yun lang. Kahit yata sikuhin ka sa boobs, hindi mo mararamdaman. Ang kapal ng padding eh.

Hindi ka makakasabi ng, DKNY!

As in, “Dede Ko Na Yan.”

Anyway, even if I had a very toxic day today, I felt alright because I felt good about my  boobs outfit. Naramdaman ko lang ang pagod when I arrived home. I just taught Anika her lessons for the day then after, I made tulala na. Alvin went out because he had to talk to somebody about something so it was just Anika and I at home.

I wasn’t minding Alvin that much kanina because he was sulking.I couldn’t wifey today so deadma muna ako. Pagod na pagod kasi talaga ako.

After Alvin left, I bathed Anika. She told me that she will teach me daw how to dance. We played some Ella Cruz videos and we danced like crazy in front of our bedroom mirror. Anika taught me how to twerk. We were laughing and laughing.

Anika kept on saying “Tatay will get so mad when he sees us!”. Hahaha!

Sumakit ang neck ko afterwards but it was worth it.

Osha mga bakla. Sleep na kami. Anika’s requesting for a massage again. Masarap daw tulog niya when I massage her.

Bolera.

Bolerang bolera like her Tatay =)

Good night guys!

Hi guys!

I know you’re all waiting for the winners of my Christmas/Birthday giveaway. Thank you to all of you who joined. 176 comments ang nareceive ng blog post na yun! World record for my blog sa dami ng comments! I love it!

I’ll draw the winners manually as soon as I can ha? May pinagdadaanan lang ako ulit. Lekat na pinagdadaanan ito. Ang dami! Hindi kaya naliligaw na ako?! Charot.

Antabayanan guys!

Have a nice week ahead of you! Mwah!

Alvin seldom goes with Anika and me to events or parties. Super seldom. He only goes if siya ang may kakilala sa nagpapaparty. Napaka-anti-social ng asawa kong ito. He would rather stay at home and lounge around and watch TV.

Opposite na opposite siya namin dalawa ni Anika. We are party people. You can take us to any party regardless if we know somebody or not.

Anika and I enjoy going out because it’s an excuse to dress up. We both love dressing up. Believe it or not, mas matagal pa sa akin si Anika magbihis. Ang daming arte. Tucked in or tucked out? Jeans or skirt? Dress or shorts? After she finally decides what clothes to wear, shoes naman. She will bring at least two pairs and go to our huge mirror inside our room.

ANIKA: Nanay, which is more bagay?

ME: This one.

She will always pick the one that I didn’t choose.

ANIKA: No. I think the other one’s better.

ME: Eh bakit tinatanong mo pa ako?!

Inggiterang frog din yan. She wants to wear similar clothes as mine.

Just like my outfit of the day last Saturday when we went to a kiddie party in McDonald’s.

Top: APARTMENT 8 CLOTHING; Pants: UNIQLO; Sandals: CLN; Sunglasses: PRADA

Katulad na lang ng top na ito. She was making kalkal her closet for a top with ruffles. When she couldn’t find one, iyak ng iyak. Susmaryosep talaga.

When we were finally able to leave, she kept on pulling my top up to cover my shoulders. Nalalaglag daw.

ME: Style yan anak. Stop pulling it up.

ANIKA: But it’s nalalaglag, Nanay.

ME: It’s really like that. It’s normal.

ANIKA: How can it be normal when it’s falling off your shoulders?

ME: It’s really like that.

ANIKA: I’m gonna tell you to Tatay.

I just rolled my eyes at her. Kanina lang gusto parehas kami. Nung naka-alis na, ang daming comments!

I love my top though. I got it from Apartment 8 Clothing in Alabang Town Center. Mahal. I got it for around Php 1,200. It’s expensive for a top na kayang kaya naman gayahin ni LT. I bought it lang because I’m obsessed now with off shouldered tops. Hindi ko kasi mailabas ang waist ko nowadays because it’s missing so shoulders ko na lang muna ang nirarampa ko.

The whole time we were at the party, I was observing Anika.

She was worrying on our way to the party. Wala daw siyang kakilala. Baka daw wala siyang makasama. When we got there naman, wala pang 5 minutes, she was Miss Friendship already! Akala mo siya ang may birthday. Kaloka.

When it was time naman for the games. Ang competitive! She was doing the relay super fast like faster than the other kids older than her. Check out her video here:

Jane, the mom of the celebrant who’s one of my childhood friends commented na akong ako daw. Hahahaha! Manang mana sa pinagmanahan. Apir.

One of my concerns with having just one child was that I was scared baka hindi matuto makisama sa ibang bata si Anika. Looking at her that day, mukhang wala naman akong magiging problema. She was making friends left and right. I was really happy that day.

I posted this photo of me and Janis at my Instagram account. To those who are not yet following me, please do so ha? @mommyfleur ang IG ko =)

There was one follower who commented that ako lang yata daw ang stressed na lalo pang gumaganda. Hay naku girl! Tuwang tuwa ako. Gusto kitang bigyan ng jacket! Lol. Thank you so much for that very nice comment. Siyemre naman bakla. The more stressed you are, the more you have to pay attention on how you look. Stressed ka nga nga, magpapakalosyang ka pa. Olats na olats naman na tayo niyan sa life. Di ba? =)

Osha guys, please stand by. I will announce the winners soon. I am just in the process of writing everyone’s name in a paper then putting it in a jar para sa bunutan. I am now wondering bakit hindi ako nagrafflecopter! Hehe!

Good night! Sweet dreams!

Guys baka you don’t know it yet ha?

I have a Youtube channel that I’m trying to push. Lelz. If only I know how to edit my videos myself, sunod sunod siguro ang mga vlogs ko. That’s my wish eh, I want to capture the Sombrero Sitcom in a video blog. Ang corny nga lang if re-enactment. Hindi na siya natural. What do you think? Do you guys have requests for my video blog? Gow! Lemme hear them! Gusto ko talaga ito i-push. I’m thinking na of doing a vlog when I’m in a mall eh. Okay kaya yun? Isasama ko kayo sa shopping ko? =D

Anyway, for the meantime, you can watch my videos in the Mommy Fleur Channel.

Eto ang isang sample diyan =)

Wedding anniversary special ko yan. It’s also one of my most memorable video because I was able to convince Mr. Sombrero to appear in the video! Big deal yun ha! Hehehe!

Don’t forget to leave your suggested ideas for my vlog in the comment section below!

Love you guys!

Thank you so much to all of you who joined my Christmas/Birthday giveaway!!! This is the first time na ganito ka-dami ang sumali! You guys must really like the products being given away! =)

Without further ado, here are the winners!!!

#1: GLAIZA OLASE

#2: GLADYS MAE SATURNINO

#3: EPER VALENCIA

#4: MADEL DAVID

#5: MARY FAITH DE ASIS

CONGRATULATIONS TO ALL THE WINNERS!!!

Please email me your name, mailing address and contact number so I can have your prizes shipped =)

Thanks for joining again guys!

Watch out for the Mommy Fleur Get Together. Coming na talaga super soon!