I’m on my 6th week of medicine.
I wanted to quit it na because of the nausea and the general physical discomfort that I feel during the day. I still wake up automatically at 3am and then fall back to sleep and wake up an hour after with anxiety. Antok ako lagi. I tell all these to my doctor.
I asked the people around me and they told me that I have improved since I started the meds 6 weeks ago. I am more responsive now. I am able to work albeit dahan dahan lang talaga kasi ang sama ng pakiramdam ko. I am able to eat pero not the same way as when I was normal. I still don’t eat desserts though. You know I love desserts. Wala ako gana. Nevertheless, kumakain naman ako. Mornings are still the worst. It gets a bit better in the afternoon then at night, I’m almost myself again.
My doctor asked me to take Wowa with me to my session with him this morning. It was there they both agreed and told me that since I have this attitude na gusto always in control, kaya ako nahihirapan sa medicine. Kinokontra ko kasi. I google the side effects and then I feel them. I should let things be daw. I have to let go and let the medicine take its course. Trust the process.
I have tried other meds before this and I really cannot tolerate them. Ito lang na Brintellix yung pinaka-natotolerate ko.
So the doctor told me to take half dose of the meds instead and take it at night na lang. Hindi na sa morning. Para tulog daw ako when the meds take effect and hopefully maging manageable yung nausea in the morning. I was telling them baka hindi naman ako makatulog. The doctor told me na wag ko daw pangunahan. Wala pa nga, nega na ako.
I really need to be more positive especially ngayong pinagdadaanan ko ito. It’s that I am so impatient to get better. Binibilang ko yung days kelan dapat okay na ako. Google ako ng google ng side effects.
Sa totoo lang guys ang hirap. I am continuing the meds because nagiimprove naman ako kahit papaano. It takes time for this medicine to fully work. Sumasabay din kasi my Gerd kaya extra hard for me.
Again, I have to be more positive. I have to keep myself busy. Hindi din nakakatulong the upcoming holidays. I dread the days na walang pasok. Ano gagawin ko? I feel the physical side effects more pag tengga lang. I told my friends about it and I am trying to make a schedule of activities until next week.
Ang dami pang bakanteng days. I’m scared.
Gusto niyo ako samahan?
Please.